I dont know. Since schools been out two of the most important guys in my life have let me down. Summer is supposed to be a time to be lazy and care free, but its been emotionally draining. I dont know if I'll be able to really trust someone after whats happened and that makes me depressed. Being alone at home from the time I wake up til 5 or 6 pm isnt helping either. I wish that my friends didn't live so far away or that they could be in the state(which a majority aren't) so they could help distract me. I wish that I could just up an go, leave my worries behind, but it doesn't look like that will be happening. I don't like this post..its really emo...

oh well, the only thing I'm really happy about is that Verne'e and Lauren are coming back from Alabama this weekend and we are supposed to go camping at the school, which will be fun:)